23 June 2014 … biopsy

Sunday was beautiful day for a road trip. I sat behind the wheel of Bren’s mum’s little auto Corolla feeling a little anxious about the trip ahead.  My tight grip and sweaty palms gave away my attempt to hide the nervousness I was feeling at driving in  the city and of why we were heading…

13 June 2014 … Consultation

It was  Friday the 13th of June 2014, when Brendan and I first found ourselves in Sydney, at the cancer hospital . I was glad It wasn’t a very hospital-y hospital. It made it easier to be there. We were both worried as we walked through the large sliding glass doors at the front of the…

14-15 May 2014 …Finding Cancer

May 14 2014 My Husband is living with Cancer! There  I’ve said it. I need to get my head around this awful sentence, because today we have found out that it is a strong possibility. Brendan has always been fit and healthy! He has never smoked, anything. Never done recreational drugs, has always eaten well and…

17/09/17: Are you OK

One of the most important things we wanted to make sure the kids understood, when the time came, was even though dad was gone it was still OK to laugh and be happy about things.

Love

Love is love. It has no beginning and no end. Infinite in its reach, there is no separation from one love to another. We all have the capacity to love unconditionally and we do. We use the same love for our friends, our family, our partners and our passions. There can be variables in intensity…

Two weeks already

Two weeks: and although it had already been a while since he could, it still feels like Bren could walk through the door any minute. It doesn’t feel final, or that he has really gone anywhere. And I know that’s because he hasn’t in anything but a physical sense. This doesn’t make us miss him…

Cancer: the story of us – The End.

I had never seen him happier than when our brother Andy helped him get back on his surfboard for the first time after his amputation, or sadder than when he stood, leaning on his crutches, tears rolling down his face as he watched the boys surf second corner.

love & rainbows

When rainbows turn up in unexpected places! Yesterday I opened my blog admin to check on  something. To my complete surprise a rainbow had replaced the top bar that has always been black… and it took my breath away. After accusing all of my sisters and nieces in the room of getting on my admin…