2018 a Year for Change: My top 10

It’s 2018! Time is passing quickly and that is out of our control. As a 52 year old widow and mum to two pretty amazing 14 year olds, this year I’m just going with it! I miss my husband, he is in my every waking thought, every breath I take and is my every heartbeat. I…

Happy New Year

This New Years message was inspired by my husband Bren. On December 31st we will have spent 4 months without him. It feels like years — it feels like yesterday. As we get ready to move into 2018, my hope is that life will be kind and gentle to all and that in all things…

Hidden Nightmares

Daily Prompt: Proclivity Creative Writing: Megan’s daily practice, a ritual developed to make it from one day to the next, had become her only solace. An escape from what she couldn’t face in the faces of everyone she knew, and many that she didn’t. Now, the very thing she felt was holding every molecule of her…

It’s Christmas time Again

So it’s Christmas time again… and if it is a time you celebrate — you will also know it can be the busiest, happiest, most stressful and for some the most heartbreaking time of the year. For me, I will get through the day the best way I can this year, as I consider how…

3/12/17 – It’s December already.

It’s December and with that comes another first. I don’t really know how I feel about the month ahead. Numb probably explains it best. I am going through the motions, getting things done and for the most part trying to feel normal, it’s a new normal but one I’m trying hard to create … even…

The Night We Met

Daily Prompt: Percussive I could feel the percussive rhythm of my heart beating almost out of my chest. I had never done anything like this before. But there was something about this guy. I could not let this moment pass or I might regret it for the rest of my life. He was easily the…

Missed Opportunities

Daily Prompt: Clutch Creative Writing Lesson 10: Part 1: using creative licence. Part 2: change the context of this chapter by switching the last paragraph to the first.                  Diary entry June 17 He had always thought his family didn’t get us and that made me sad. Not for me…

24/11/17: Write it Down

It’s been 731 days since the excitement of heading off to Queensland on what would have been our last family Gold Coast holiday. I remember even packing for that trip was fun – sadly, we didn’t get there.  Now I can’t remember the last time we made that trip together, as a family, and I’m…

12/11/2017: No room for Regret.

If in doubt, follow your heart. As with death, in life — there is no room for regret. I guess in some ways this is another cautionary tail. When my husband Bren was diagnosed with pleomorphic sarcoma in June 2014, we were shocked. It is a rare disease and was diagnosed at late stage. He…

29/10/17: Death – a conversation

Death: a single moment in time where all that comes before is living; and so too, all that comes after. Grief is an ongoing process; reading through and organising my diary entries from the last 3 years has been a cathartic part of that process for me. Portions of the following post have come from a diary entry made…

23/10/17: The Shed Luxe…is exactly what I needed!

A little Update: As I mentioned in a previous post; toward the end of Bren’s cancer story we had both become very aware that I would have to opt back into working outside the home to continue to support our little family where he left off. We knew that there was some superannuation and insurance…

18/10/17 Happy Birthday Bren

It’s a tough day. Beautiful painful. Beautiful because today we celebrate an incredible human being whose humanity was equaled only by how he was loved and how he loved. Painful, because he isn’t here physically to celebrate with us. We miss you babe, and as all the first’s roll around without you: fathers day last…