Meditation

Day 1: Sitting cross-legged watching the waves roll toward me, I thought to myself how good it was to be out of the house as I tried to get comfortable. It had been a while since I’d felt like going anywhere I didn’t need to. Note to self; I must add more to my need…

Growing

As we adapt to a strange and fast-changing world, my little family are experiencing lots of growth and change outside of the COVID epidemic that comes naturally with growing children. Or more correctly, growing teens. My firstborn, granted only by a minute or so, Baden, has now entered the workforce. He has secured an apprenticeship…

You and Me

To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part. On this day, Feb 1999, Bren and I made each promise above to each other and honoured them all, till death parted us…

Pain Comparison

People are kind and want you to feel better when you have lost someone, they want to help and to fix it for you. But grief is not something that can be fixed. There is nothing that can be said or done to lessen the pain.

The Dating Game

UPDATE: We have had so much going on this month my head is spinning. The Shed Luxe has been super busy, we are still one girl down for another couple more months (more on that later) and are excited by what is ahead because of that. There is never a dull moment on the home…

Secondary Grief

I understand the concept of secondary grief and have experienced it in many ways since Bren died. I knew right from the beginning Grief, in any form, wasn’t something I’d conquer or get over. Now, almost a year and a half down the track I know, at least, that for all the hard days there…

How I’ve Changed with Widowhood

GO PLACIDLY amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence … (from Desiderata) If only it were that easy. Although once able to find an inner calm and peaceful silence in meditation & Reiki — or a simple walk on the beach, it’s not been easy since being…

Birthdays

Dear Bren, Hey Babe, a year on and I’m still trying to work grief out; or work through it, get around it, over it or even just understand it. At times like these, you’re on my mind constantly. Your birthday a little over a week ago, and our twinnies birthdays in less than a week….

No more tears

A simple eye check was all it took to find I had no tears left. Well that’s not entirely true, for some strange reason they aren’t coming freely when I feel sad or hear, watch or talk about something sad, but will flow like a flooded river if I’m anywhere near a sprig of wattle….

One Year Without You

To live a life that inspires others is to have lived a life with purpose. Brendan John Maloney was many things to many people and he loved his family, friends, town and community with all his heart. First and foremost, though, he was a family man.  He was never happier than when he was spending…