February

It’s the last day of summer. How did that happen? Although it’ll be nice to sit with the crisp air of an autumn morning again, coffee in hand, checking in with the day ahead – I always feel just a little bit sad when summer ends. I didn’t spend nearly enough time in the ocean…

January

 January – my apologies for writing this in February! January has passed in the blink of an eye! Try as I might, to share a little something each month, I’m letting busy get in the way. I have to confess, in a past life, I found the glorification of busy – boring. Now I’m allowing…

Growing

As we adapt to a strange and fast-changing world, my little family are experiencing lots of growth and change outside of the COVID epidemic that comes naturally with growing children. Or more correctly, growing teens. My firstborn, granted only by a minute or so, Baden, has now entered the workforce. He has secured an apprenticeship…

You and Me

To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part. On this day, Feb 1999, Bren and I made each promise above to each other and honoured them all, till death parted us…

The Dating Game

UPDATE: We have had so much going on this month my head is spinning. The Shed Luxe has been super busy, we are still one girl down for another couple more months (more on that later) and are excited by what is ahead because of that. There is never a dull moment on the home…

Secondary Grief

I understand the concept of secondary grief and have experienced it in many ways since Bren died. I knew right from the beginning Grief, in any form, wasn’t something I’d conquer or get over. Now, almost a year and a half down the track I know, at least, that for all the hard days there…

How I’ve Changed with Widowhood

GO PLACIDLY amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence … (from Desiderata) If only it were that easy. Although once able to find an inner calm and peaceful silence in meditation & Reiki — or a simple walk on the beach, it’s not been easy since being…

Birthdays

Dear Bren, Hey Babe, a year on and I’m still trying to work grief out; or work through it, get around it, over it or even just understand it. At times like these, you’re on my mind constantly. Your birthday a little over a week ago, and our twinnies birthdays in less than a week….

One Year Without You

To live a life that inspires others is to have lived a life with purpose. Brendan John Maloney was many things to many people and he loved his family, friends, town and community with all his heart. First and foremost, though, he was a family man.  He was never happier than when he was spending…

Rise – Finding My Way

It’s been eleven months since my husband’s death and I am at the very beginning of a new project, undertaken in part to ease the loss and deep heartbreak I’m going through.  My chest aches physically every day and has since he left. I worry sometimes that my heart is irreparable.  I am struggling to…