14 August 2014…some days are hard

Keeping a positive attitude doesn’t prevent us from going through difficult times. This is something I have come to understand pretty clearly in the last couple of months. Positive thought doesn’t take away the crappy days, or the awful side effects I watch my husband go through, but it does help us to keep putting…

7 August 2014… hair today gone tomorrow

In the shower, on Thursday, when we were getting ready to go down for the next lot of cancer treatment, Bren’s hair started falling out.  It was like, OK today’s the day, and every time he put his hands near his hair some of it fell out. Ironically, he had a pretty good head of…

29 July 2014…chemo wrap-up.

Bren has just wrapped up 7 days of toxicity from his first lot of chemo and it has been a bit of a rollercoaster ride. We have a few things to get our heads around — these are just a couple of our new normals: He has to use his own bathroom. Putting it delicately he…

23 July 2014 …first chemo: crash cart required

We are both  anxious as we turn up at Day Therapy this morning. It’s 8 am and we are the first ones here. The reception area is bright and airy with a coffee and tea bar opposite the reception desk. The furniture is modern, in caramel and coffee colours and there are two widescreen TV’s…

22 July 2014…Chemo 1; meeting Team Brendan – City

It’s been a huge couple of days; Tuesday was all about meeting more of Team Brendan, and preparing for what would happen the following day  — Bren’s first chemo treatment. We started off by meeting the acting Clinical Nurse Consultant, a really friendly and extremely busy young woman. in her  early 30’s, she is tall with…

20 July 2014… a road trip to recovery

The wait is finally over, after a very long few weeks it is now all go. Brendan’s treatment starts this Tuesday. Last Wednesday, not being able to wait any longer without knowing what was going on, I sent an email off to the  Sarcoma Multidisciplinary Team requesting a treatment plan, and that same day we…

11 July 2014…the waiting game

It’s almost a  month since Brendan’s initial consultation with his doctor, at the Sydney cancer clinic. His biopsy was three weeks ago and he received the results over a week ago  — confirming that he has a large sarcoma in his right femur and a smaller one in his left. We are hoping to know…

5 July 2014 ….biopsy results

The last thing you want your husband to do when getting his biopsy results from his doctor, is look at you and mouth the word fuck. We finally have the results and they are not what we were hoping for, but are what we expected after Dr P had talked to Bren after rounds.  It…

14-15 May 2014 …Finding Cancer

May 14 2014 My Husband is living with Cancer! There  I’ve said it. I need to get my head around this awful sentence, because today we have found out that it is a strong possibility. Brendan has always been fit and healthy! He has never smoked, anything. Never done recreational drugs, has always eaten well and…

17/09/17: Are you OK

One of the most important things we wanted to make sure the kids understood, when the time came, was even though dad was gone it was still OK to laugh and be happy about things.