September 2014…our Dad has cancer

When we found out Brendan had Cancer one of our main concerns was how it would affect the kids. Our plan of attack was pretty simple. Keep things as normal as possible and laugh often. We knew, for a while anyway, that we wouldn’t be going on outings on weekends — home would be it…

September 2014: Oncology Review

Thursday 4th September Treatment Review It’s spring, yet as the alarm wakes us up at 6am to head down to the city it feels more like the middle of winter. I just want to pull the covers back up around me and keep dreaming about the brown suede heels with the mesh centre strap that I…

August 2014: Oncology Appointment

Thursday 22nd  August 2014 Here we are; the last session in the first part of Bren’s treatment plan. Two weeks from today we will sit down with the medical team, including Doctors S (Orthopaedic Surgeon) and DR V (Oncologist)…..to assess how Bren is responding to treatment. All going well the operation will then be scheduled…

25 March 2018 —  thinking of you

Hey Babe It’s late, after midnight, sleep is eluding me again. Im tired but that doesn’t seem to make any difference. It’s odd how comfortably duality sits snugly within the same space these days. Beautiful/painfully, happy/sad…sleepy/wide awake. Tonight I’m tired and can’t sleep, again. I’m tired/awake, it’s kind’ve become my normal, and I know that…

12/11/2017: No room for Regret.

If in doubt, follow your heart. As with death, in life — there is no room for regret. I guess in some ways this is another cautionary tail. When my husband Bren was diagnosed with pleomorphic sarcoma in June 2014, we were shocked. It is a rare disease and was diagnosed at late stage. He…

14 August 2014…some days are hard

Keeping a positive attitude doesn’t prevent us from going through difficult times. This is something I have come to understand pretty clearly in the last couple of months. Positive thought doesn’t take away the crappy days, or the awful side effects I watch my husband go through, but it does help us to keep putting…

7 August 2014… hair today gone tomorrow

In the shower, on Thursday, when we were getting ready to go down for the next lot of cancer treatment, Bren’s hair started falling out.  It was like, OK today’s the day, and every time he put his hands near his hair some of it fell out. Ironically, he had a pretty good head of…

29 July 2014…chemo wrap-up.

Bren has just wrapped up 7 days of toxicity from his first lot of chemo and it has been a bit of a rollercoaster ride. We have a few things to get our heads around — these are just a couple of our new normals: He has to use his own bathroom. Putting it delicately he…

23 July 2014 …first chemo: crash cart required

We are both  anxious as we turn up at Day Therapy this morning. It’s 8 am and we are the first ones here. The reception area is bright and airy with a coffee and tea bar opposite the reception desk. The furniture is modern, in caramel and coffee colours and there are two widescreen TV’s…

22 July 2014…Chemo 1; meeting Team Brendan – City

It’s been a huge couple of days; Tuesday was all about meeting more of Team Brendan, and preparing for what would happen the following day  — Bren’s first chemo treatment. We started off by meeting the acting Clinical Nurse Consultant, a really friendly and extremely busy young woman. in her  early 30’s, she is tall with…