Christmas is almost upon us, it’s a time of celebration, reflection, togetherness and for the very lucky, family. This year will be our first without Mum and I know there are lots of people out there spending firsts, seconds, thirds and more without people that they love. And I know how hard that is. Today,…
2nd Anniversary – tu me manques
Two Years 24 months 104.286 weeks 730 days 17520 hour … missing from us. To say I (we) miss you, is — stating the obvious and we both know that’s something I do well. You always teased me about it and we laughed about it and, well, I still do it. I miss you….
Pain Comparison
People are kind and want you to feel better when you have lost someone, they want to help and to fix it for you. But grief is not something that can be fixed. There is nothing that can be said or done to lessen the pain.
1: Before You Go
I think that was the last time a saw him walk like that. I wish I’d known it then. I had always loved the way he moved and I would never see him move that freely again. If I had realised at the time how big that small moment was, how life changing this day would be, I’d have been devastated.
My Ironman
19 years ago Bren crossed the finish line of the Australian Ironman race for the first time. It was held in beautiful Forster, on the Mid North Coast way back in the day. Finishing this race then and now, is a feat in itself – and as I write this, I imagine legends are still…
The Dating Game
UPDATE: We have had so much going on this month my head is spinning. The Shed Luxe has been super busy, we are still one girl down for another couple more months (more on that later) and are excited by what is ahead because of that. There is never a dull moment on the home…
Cancer Widow
Recently I was asked to speak at an upcoming forum for health professionals regarding the general care for cancer patients in a regional area from a carer’s perspective. Those who know me understand how challenging and overwhelming public speaking is for me, especially from such a personal perspective and at a time I still feel…
20 Years – an Anniversary
The rain was torrential and had been for at least a week in the lead up to our big day. It didn’t look like clearing. I wanted to sleep, no, I needed to sleep, it was the night before my wedding. I could not walk down the aisle like a zombie on xanax. I needed my…
Secondary Grief
I understand the concept of secondary grief and have experienced it in many ways since Bren died. I knew right from the beginning Grief, in any form, wasn’t something I’d conquer or get over. Now, almost a year and a half down the track I know, at least, that for all the hard days there…
Happy New Year
It’s Saturday the 29th of December. The kids and I have been packing for a mini-break — just a few days away, to say goodbye to 2018 and ring in the New Year with family that we don’t get to see often enough. We made the decision to go away for our New Years celebrations on…
