The rain was torrential and had been for at least a week in the lead up to our big day. It didn’t look like clearing. I wanted to sleep, no, I needed to sleep, it was the night before my wedding. I could not walk down the aisle like a zombie on xanax. I needed my…
I understand the concept of secondary grief and have experienced it in many ways since Bren died. I knew right from the beginning Grief, in any form, wasn’t something I’d conquer or get over. Now, almost a year and a half down the track I know, at least, that for all the hard days there…
Happy New Year
It’s Saturday the 29th of December. The kids and I have been packing for a mini-break — just a few days away, to say goodbye to 2018 and ring in the New Year with family that we don’t get to see often enough. We made the decision to go away for our New Years celebrations on…
Social Connection
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How I’ve Changed with Widowhood
GO PLACIDLY amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence … (from Desiderata) If only it were that easy. Although once able to find an inner calm and peaceful silence in meditation & Reiki — or a simple walk on the beach, it’s not been easy since being…
September 2014…our Dad has cancer
When we found out Brendan had Cancer one of our main concerns was how it would affect the kids. Our plan of attack was pretty simple. Keep things as normal as possible and laugh often. We knew, for a while anyway, that we wouldn’t be going on outings on weekends — home would be it…
Birthdays
Dear Bren, Hey Babe, a year on and I’m still trying to work grief out; or work through it, get around it, over it or even just understand it. At times like these, you’re on my mind constantly. Your birthday a little over a week ago, and our twinnies birthdays in less than a week….
September 2014: Oncology Review
Thursday 4th September Treatment Review It’s spring, yet as the alarm wakes us up at 6am to head down to the city it feels more like the middle of winter. I just want to pull the covers back up around me and keep dreaming about the brown suede heels with the mesh centre strap that I…
August 2014: Oncology Appointment
Thursday 22nd August 2014 Here we are; the last session in the first part of Bren’s treatment plan. Two weeks from today we will sit down with the medical team, including Doctors S (Orthopaedic Surgeon) and DR V (Oncologist)…..to assess how Bren is responding to treatment. All going well the operation will then be scheduled…
No more tears
A simple eye check was all it took to find I had no tears left. Well that’s not entirely true, for some strange reason they aren’t coming freely when I feel sad or hear, watch or talk about something sad, but will flow like a flooded river if I’m anywhere near a sprig of wattle….
