ISO 2020

I can do boring. I love a binge-worthy series or reading a book and I like to write my thoughts down. I don’t even mind oversharing them. Bren, however, would have hated ISO 2020. He was always outside. Whether surfing, training or just mowing the lawn, he was energy in motion and hated being contained….

The Heartbeat of Happiness

Today, sitting on my couch, where we have sat chatting a hundred times before, Ali asked how I was feeling. Our couch conversations are always honest and more often then not they take us down a rabbit hole of spiritual exploration – sprinkled with personal and general insights. These conversations are sometimes funny, sometimes serious…

You and Me

To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part. On this day, Feb 1999, Bren and I made each promise above to each other and honoured them all, till death parted us…


Yesterday was another milestone for Tyz and Bades. Seniors now, their first day of year 11 came around quicker than a bullet train. I’m proud of them both and know their dad would have been too. I did feel bad leaving Bades at home to get organised while I drove Tyz to her first 8…


Christmas is almost upon us, a time of celebration, reflection, togetherness and for the very lucky, family.  This year will be our first without Mum and I know there are lots of people out there spending firsts, seconds, thirds and more without people that they love. And I know how hard that is. Today, I…

2nd Anniversary – tu me manques

Two Years 24 months 104.286 weeks 730 days 17520 hour … missing from us.   To say I (we) miss you, is — stating the obvious and we both know that’s something I do well. You always teased me about it and we laughed about it and, well, I still do it. I miss you….

Pain Comparison

People are kind and want you to feel better when you have lost someone, they want to help and to fix it for you. But grief is not something that can be fixed. There is nothing that can be said or done to lessen the pain.

1: Before You Go

I think that was the last time a saw him walk like that. I wish I’d known it then. I had always loved the way he moved and I would never see him move that freely again. If I had realised at the time how big that small moment was, how life changing this day would be, I’d have been devastated.

My Ironman

19 years ago Bren crossed the finish line of the Australian Ironman race for the first time. It was held in beautiful Forster, on the Mid North Coast way back in the day. Finishing this race then and now, is a feat in itself – and as I write this, I imagine legends are still…

The Dating Game

UPDATE: We have had so much going on this month my head is spinning. The Shed Luxe has been super busy, we are still one girl down for another couple more months (more on that later) and are excited by what is ahead because of that. There is never a dull moment on the home…