Results are In

On Friday I was tested at the Taree Clinic for Covid19 after being referred by the nurse at my doctor’s surgery. I have had a persistent dry cough, but no other symptoms so I was pretty sure the results would be negative and thankfully they were. Although it took several hours of ringing the clinic…

Time to Think

ISO 2020 has stepped up a notch at home this weekend. I have had a persistent cough for about 10 days and was advised by the nurse at my doctor’s surgery to go to the covid19 clinic yesterday to be tested for coronavirus. I can’t leave the house till the results come through. I am…

It Comes and Goes in Waves

Today, driving back to the beach, I was thinking about Bren and the pain he suffered in the last months of his life. I have thought about it a lot since isolating against Covid19. His pain was so intense we had to prepare him for toilet breaks and he would have to recover from them….

ISO 2020

I can do boring. I love a binge-worthy series or reading a book and I like to write my thoughts down. I don’t even mind oversharing them. Bren, however, would have hated ISO 2020. He was always outside. Whether surfing, training or just mowing the lawn, he was energy in motion and hated being contained….

The Heartbeat of Happiness

Today, sitting on my couch, where we have sat chatting a hundred times before, Ali asked how I was feeling. Our couch conversations are always honest and more often then not they take us down a rabbit hole of spiritual exploration – sprinkled with personal and general insights. These conversations are sometimes funny, sometimes serious…

You and Me

To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part. On this day, Feb 1999, Bren and I made each promise above to each other and honoured them all, till death parted us…


Yesterday was another milestone for Tyz and Bades. Seniors now, their first day of year 11 came around quicker than a bullet train. I’m proud of them both and know their dad would have been too. I did feel bad leaving Bades at home to get organised while I drove Tyz to her first 8…


Christmas is almost upon us, a time of celebration, reflection, togetherness and for the very lucky, family.  This year will be our first without Mum and I know there are lots of people out there spending firsts, seconds, thirds and more without people that they love. And I know how hard that is. Today, I…

2nd Anniversary – tu me manques

Two Years 24 months 104.286 weeks 730 days 17520 hour … missing from us.   To say I (we) miss you, is — stating the obvious and we both know that’s something I do well. You always teased me about it and we laughed about it and, well, I still do it. I miss you….

Pain Comparison

People are kind and want you to feel better when you have lost someone, they want to help and to fix it for you. But grief is not something that can be fixed. There is nothing that can be said or done to lessen the pain.