11 July 2014…the waiting game

Its two days short of one month since Brendan’s initial consultation with his doctor at Sydney’s Lifehouse. It’s three weeks and four days since his biopsy and one week tomorrow since we received the biopsy results, and heard the life changing news that he has a sarcoma in his right femur [it is the primary cancer]….

5 July 2014 ….biopsy results

The last thing you want your husband to do when getting his biopsy results from his doctor, is look at you and mouth the word “fuck” … it was however a completely honest expression of what was going through his head at the time….. We finally have the results and they are not what we…

23 June 2014 … biopsy

Sunday was another beautiful day for a road trip. I sat comfortably behind the wheel of Margaret’s little auto Corolla as we were preparing to leave, my tight grip and sweaty palms giving away my attempt to hide anxiousness at driving in the city. I know it sounds like a crazy thing to be worried…

13 June 2014 … Consultation

It was a Friday, the 13th of June 2014, when Brendan and I first found ourselves at Lifehouse, an innovative, purpose built cancer hospital. Sitting proudly adjacent to The Royal Prince Alfred Hospital in Sydney, it had opened in November 2013 —everything was fresh and new. It wasn’t very hospital-y and that made it easier…

14 May 2014 …Finding Cancer

“My Husband is living with Cancer!” There, I’ve said it! His health and fitness have always been a priority! He has never smoked, and I mean anything. Never done recreational drugs, has always eaten well and in the last few years has pretty much stopped drinking alcohol; due to an allergic type reaction to most types. He…

Housekeeping.

To the lovely friends of my blog, I will be taking a bloggers housekeeping vacation for the next little while. I am taking some time out to organise and transfer all of the archived posts from my blogspot account, regarding my family’s cancer story over the last three years, to calliemm.com. I am doing this…

17/09/17: Are you OK

One of the most important things we wanted to make sure the kids understood, when the time came, was even though dad was gone it was still OK to laugh and be happy about things.

Love

Love is love. It has no beginning and no end. Infinite in its reach, there is no separation from one love to another. We all have the capacity to love unconditionally and we do. We use the same love for our friends, our family, our partners and our passions. There can be variables in intensity…

Two weeks already

Two weeks: and although it had already been a while since he could, it still feels like Bren could walk through the door any minute. It doesn’t feel final, or that he has really gone anywhere. And I know that’s because he hasn’t in anything but a physical sense. This doesn’t make us miss him…

A healing hand

I haven’t really talked about the part Reiki as a daily practice and a relaxation technique played in supporting Brendan, the children and me throughout Bren’s illness and his peaceful passing until now. In the final months of Brendan’s life he asked for hands on reiki almost daily as it comforted him and helped to…

Cancer: the story of us – The End.

I had never seen him happier than when our brother Andy helped him get back on his surfboard for the first time after his amputation, or sadder than when he stood, leaning on his crutches, tears rolling down his face as he watched the boys surf second corner.

Good Grief

Grief is a funny thing. Not laugh out loud funny – more odd funny. And like dealing with pregnancy, raising children, training dogs, painting houses and any number of other things, we all have our own way of doing it.